Finally, It's Out in the Open in Out in the Open

All last month C was asking me to move in with him. He’s asked me before but I always politely declined. I had absolutely no desire to move in with him. I liked my space, my own home, being close to my parents, and such. However, as time has passed I have seen how unfair it has become to our daughter. She misses out on so many things like sports and friends’ birthday parties. Being that I work weekends and she’s as her dad’s house she can’t go to the parties. (He lives 2 hours away)
So recently (last month) he asked again. And I finally got the courage to tell him what that would take for me to move. Marriage.
After he told me that he can’t do that out of fear I simply told him that it was ok. I am patient. I can’t wait. I mean, moving in with him with out marriage is teaching our daughter all kinds of wrong things. He knows that. So I guess I am just waiting for him to come to realize that marriage is the next step. He loves me. I love him. And together we love out daughter and want what is best for her.
Maybe he won’t ever propose. Maybe he will. He wants us all to move to California. That’s crazy. Maybe after Lily graduates. Maybe.
But first?
Marriage.

Her