How things used to be in Stuff

Reeeeeeeeeeeeeally getting over this now.

It’s been a week. Technically the first three days were the fever, but since it’s been the never-ending cough which is driving me crazy.
Sleeping is good, because somehow sleep stops the coughing, and I’m gnerally okay for a few minutes when I wake up, but then my body’s like, “Oh hey! I see you’re awake! Okay, let’s resume where we left off… ^hack, hack, cough, cough, sickness, germs, blah blah^ Here ya go! I know how much you’re loving this!”

Die, just die!!!
I was so fucking drowsy yesterday and I realized it was because of all the cough syrup that I’d downed during the day. I literally couldn’t keep my eyes open.
Thankfully I washed all my sheets and pillowcases to try and get rid of any evidence of the gross sickness from late last-week and they at least feel fresh.

Part of me wants to go to the doctor, and another part of me is just telling myself that all the doctor is going to say is ‘rest in bed, here’s a stronger prescription (maybe)’ and charge me $70 for that one sentence diagnosis.
Seriously, it’s what happens every time. I don’t know if it’s just my doctor being lazy, or that’s what it is, or if I should change doctors, but it really puts me off going (ie. waste of time and money) and makes me want to just ride this out, because that’s usually what I’ve ended up doing in the past anyway upon that doctor’s orders.

My final dentist appointment is in a week’s time now. I’m looking forward to having it all done and I would think this fucking cough will have pissed off by then. But I need to ask her to double check one of the teeth she’s done. I’m unsure whether it’s just my gums being overwhelmed or if it’s something more serious but i can feel sensitivity whenever I have something hot or cold on that side. I’m just worried she’ll charge me again for something that should have been fixed the first time. I should only have to fork out another $400ish to be all done. I got a calculator out and worked out the entire thing will have cost just under $3000, but I still think that’s $2k or maybe even $3k cheaper than if I had stuck with the original dentist. But I’m certainly not attending the final appointment if I’m still hacking my lungs up. Surely not. I was reading that a lot of coughs can persist for around 2 to 3 weeks though. Fuck I hope not. Most of mine are generally around the week mark. I was hoping it would go away before I return to work tomorrow, but it looks like that’s not going to happen.

I got a message this morning finally letting me know that my new credit card has been approved, and that it should arrive within 5-7 days! I checked my current credit card balance to see if the balance transfer had been transferred over, but the full amount is still there, so I’m not sure how that all works. It’s the first time I’ve ever taken advantage of that. Maybe that happens later?
I moreso just want it to so I don’t have to worry about the interest.
I guess all I can do is wait and see.

My entries lately have sucked, I know that. In fact, they have totally sucked for a long time. Whilst being sick, I transferred over a few more of my old OD entries to her (privately so they don’t annoy people’s bookmarks this time) and just reading back through those entries as I copied them over, MAN I used to be such a fun person. I actually was out doing so much stuff and I had a car and was always visiting and hanging out with friends, all whilst working full-time.

Looking at that back then, to me now, made me feel really pathetic about myself and the cynical person I’ve become over the years.
I thought 30’s were meant to be fun. Yeah, sure, you don’t give a shit about trivial drama anymore, but everything else seems to have gotten dragged down along with it.
Man, that’s depressing.