Christmas 2013 in Out in the Open

Christmas was very nice this year. All of the gifts I received were well thought out and useful.

My 5 year old daughter told me she didn't want any gifts this year. She was serious about it. So serious in fact that on Christmas Eve night she cried in bed saying that she didn't want anything and that "she told me a hundred times." She also said if she got anything she was going to give it away. My daughter is special. And sure, I am biased to say that. But seriously. I don't understand why she didn't want gifts. I don't understand where it came from. I am actually going to ask her dad if he said something.
On Christmas morning she got gifts. She loved them all and decided having presents was okay. I am hoping she isn't scarred from my giving her gifts. I just enjoy giving her gifts on Christmas. I mean, what parent doesn't? M daughter leaves for California tomorrow (with her dad). She's gone for a week this time. I hope she's okay gone that long. Heck, who am I kiddin? I hope I can handle it. I already feel anxiety. But I know she needs this time with her dad. And I know her dad needs this time with her. Things are still up in the air with my trip to Canada. I want to go, but am having second thoughts. I know it's because Lily is not going to be around. It's hard to let go of her. I've had her every day all day for 5 years. One does not just simply let go of their child easily. I wish C could understand that... or at least think about it. I paid my sister back the $2000.00 I owed her. I feel a huge weight lifted off of me. I worked hard to pay that money back. I am grateful that I can finally do it. Going back to school and getting a skill was perhaps one of the smartest things I've done. And I love my job. But, I aint going to lie... I can't wait to get off 3rd shift!! Just one more night!

Well, that is all for now. I am hoping I will like prosebox. However, I am sad to leave OpenDiary. I also hope I update more this year than I have in the past.

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