Oh So Incredibly Alone 10-25-2013 in Out in the Open

Oh So Incredibly Alone Friday, October 25, 2013

It will get easier. I just don't know when. Only time.

My heart keeps saying, "come back come back come back." My head keeps saying, "Go. Go. Go. Go."

I want to throw my phone away. Every text message I get and every email that comes in I check to see... maybe... it's him. It never is.

Has he really finally let me go? Does this prove that he never loved me? Am I able to handle that truth? When I do finally hear from him and he just wants to take Lily for a visit, how will I ever be able to handle that? When do I tell my parents? How long will it take me to heal--this time. Will I heal?

I want to go to bed and just not wake up.

Her

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[dontyouforgetaboutme] 10/27/2013 2:12:56 AM
I've been where you are. I understand the hurt you're feeling. I read the entry after this one. I'm sorry he left without saying anything. You deserved a conversation at the very least. If you ever need anyone to talk to I'm a good listener. [Shadowing Tulips]