Wishful thinking in A Day in the Life of Me

So many houses up for sale in our area at the moment. There is one that is PERFECT in EVERY way and we would die to have it… its $309,900 3 bed, 2 bath, built in the 1940s like most homes in this area, but its recently had alot of work, and a beautiful deck and back yard.... /sigh

Bought a ticket for saturday, but sadly I am not collecting 7mill this week.

I have a friend who files taxes and she does ours for us every year as apparently when D first got here, it would have been ridiculously expensive for us where he isn’t a PR yet, and she just keeps on getting them done for us.
My student loan has always been a thorn in my side. I only went to placate the ex, i only took an office admin course, but that fucking loan has been haunting me ever since. its been 15 years since i went......
Well… the gov has a lean on my student loan so they get all my income tax, cause for a while i was living by the skin of my teeth. The fact that my other bills were getting paid for a while was a miracle. But I couldn’t up keep the payments on the loan, and i had already used up all my pay-back exceptions, so it went to gov collections..
Well its looking like this year with my taxes a HUGE chunk of it will be paid off!!!!!!
Sweet mother of good I am so conflicted, I wish i was getting the money in hand i could really use it for other things, but at the same time, i am glad its going there.
I am considering once again, hunting down another part time job. It will most likely mean me burning out at some point, but the fact is I need to get my debts paid down/off and I want to do it before December hits now, so that when the gov takes a look at my finances, they look better then they probably do now.

So many plans we made, not realizing what fate had in store.... I mean seriously, if shes trying to test the strength of our relationship, wasn’t the 6 years of long distance enough?! lol

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