ptsd.and rape. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

um so. i’ve been having body memories again for the past...........4 days not counting today. they’re a 2,3 - a 5 so not enough to make me upset. i mean they’re not exactly pleasent either. i guess the whole.hospital thing’s triggering enough. ya know that’s not a word i use when it comes to what happened though it’s a word i use when it comes to cutting and actually.that’s the only time i use that word.idinno i don’t like.to use it when it comes to drinking/eds.............

oh ‘the whole hospital thing’ being.if i fall the lady has to take me to the hospital even if there’s nothing wrong. i know why so. seems like a lot of work.i already went over this in another entry so no point to going on about it again. no that’s it really.

[wow i thought there’d be more to this and maybe there is........]