F.U. POPCORN SHRIMP! in I'm About To Have A Nervous Breakdown

I feel sick at my stomach right now.

Hello, my name is Jesse and I’m an alcoholic and addict.

I was 14 years old when I had my first cigarette. Don’t believe the hype that marijuana is the gateway drug, it isn’t. It’s tobacco.

I was 15 years old when I first tried marijuana. There is always the speech of don’t do drugs and stay in school. Well, I just so happened to BE at school when a friend told me he had pot and asked if I wanted to smoke. When I told him that I had never tried it he told me that I must come with him. Skipped class, got stoned and went back for biology class where we ended up watching a video on snakes while I fell asleep.

I was 16 when I first tried cocaine.

17 with LSD and realized that pain pills are amazing thanks to my now retired dentist.

Was also 17 the first time I got drunk-ish. I would have a few drinks at a party and leave it at that. Swore up and down that I would not start drinking on a regular basis that was until I turned 21.

There are reasons I feel like a shell some days and that the substances make me, “whole.”

I have a long line of drug addiction/alcoholism/mental illness in my family.

There will be more to follow, I’ve been wanting to write this out for a little while now.