Being a Mom is Really Hard Sometimes 06-27-2011 in Out in the Open

Being a Mom is Really Hard Sometimes Monday, June 27, 2011

I really wish I would update this more often. By the time I am done with school, homework, and getting Lily in bed, I just don't want to.

Lily is 2 and a half now. 32 months to be more exact. She met her father for the first time last weekend. A week before she met him something happened. Lily and I were walking into Walgreens and she said, "Where is Lily's Dad?" I just said, "Oh he lives far away." Luckily that was a good enough answer for her. Coincidently, he texted me that same night so I told him she said. Then I asked him if he wanted to meet her. He said yes. He came the next weekend.

About a week later Lily hadn't said really anything about him. Until one night she climbed up on my lap and started whining/crying. Then she said, "I miss Daddy." And if that wasn't enough to break my heart she said, "I can't find him." I just held her.

I don't know what is best for her. Her never have meeting him... or her not getting to see him very often. He said he might come this past weekend again, but said his basement flooded. Maybe it's true? I don't know. All I know is that Lily deserves to have him in her life. I just wish it could be more.

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That has to be really tough...it's one thing when the father isn't involved at all, and "he lives far away" is enough. It's going to be SO much tougher on you AND Lily to have him in and out, especially if he's unreliable about visiting. I hope it gets easier...maybe he'll come around more regularly now; I can't imagine him not just falling all to pieces in love with her! [Mommy2Katie] 6/28/2011 7:30:36 AM
Maybe you can arrange a once a month or something. Maybe a webcam chat or anything that will appease her interest. [muted exposure] 6/28/2011 10:29:23 AM
I'm going through that "I miss Dad" ** right now. I don't know what I'm going to do when he's gone. [Grace On Fire] [p] 6/28/2011 11:22:21 AM
That sounds really tough. Lily does deserve to have him in her life, once he is ready to be the father she needs. It would be so sad to have him be a source of disappointment and pain for her. She is a lucky little one to have you as her mother. You are doing a great job <3 [nursechicrn] 7/24