Wish I knew then what I know now in Adventures in paradise

Wow, two guys I personally know (one whom I hooked up with many years ago) have come out as transgender today.
I seriously didn’t even realize, about either of them.

One was a little more of a surprise than the other, and that’s the one who did drag at Fluffy every Sunday. I thought drag was the extent of it. Guess not. He’s… sorry....She’s always been really friendly toward me and sometimes a little bit flirtatious, which was sweet. I never hooked up with her but I suppose it could have happened.

The one I did hook up with back in the day actually has one of the biggest penises I’d ever seen on a bottom-guy. Well, I don’t know if she is still pre-op or remaining pre-op. I’m still a little confused about these things.

I think it’s fantastic that these guys… sorry… girls (that’s gonna take a while to get used to remember saying) now have the guts to tell those close to them about this. I guess the ones close to them have known for some time. I only found out via both of their Facebook status’ today, which obviously go toward the top of the newsfeed due to their popularity and supportive likes they’ve gotten.

It comes a month or two after another guy (who I don’t know personally but is on my Facebook ‘friends’ list) came out as Transgender. I feel weird saying ‘came out as’ because I’ve always seen that as a gay thing (like I did at age 18/19) but I guess it just means ‘revealed’ no matter what the circumstance, and T is a part of the ‘LGBT’ acronym.

I’m reminded back of when I was about 14 or 15 or so, and I was still living on the farm with the parentals. I wasn’t even sure of myself back then, but there was this ‘guy’ chatting to me on one of the various few channels there were to chat through back then and I remember him being transgendered. And this was back in the 90’s. I know it’s been around for ages but it seems only fairly recently that people are coming around to it and it makes me a little sad that this is the case.
But I feel guilty. I remember treating this guy like absolute crap back then. I didn’t understand it. I was too young at the time and I certainly didn’t understand myself, let alone someone else who had changed their gender completely.

That ‘guy’ (and I don’t mean to come across as disrepectful with the inverted comma’s there, it’s just the gender I saw at the time) has crossed my mind at various times throughout the years of my life and I often wonder where ‘he’ is these days. I should be using ‘She’ without the inverted commas hey? Ok, She. Sorry.
But I have no idea who that person even was back then, nor would I know where they are now. I’ve just always felt that I should have apologised to her. I was an idiot.

I should also apologise to the girl I slept with back when she was a guy. I ran into him (at the time - oh my God this is getting confusing lol) and I thought he looked really bad. I thought it was because he was maybe on a lot of drugs at the time, and maybe he was, but he called me out on it the next day. He literally sent me a message saying, “I noticed the way you looked at me.”

So. I felt like an asshole then, and now that I know this information, I feel like even more of an asshole now.

And this is ironic because I was just chatting with my old housemate Davey over Grindr today and he was saying how he thinks I’m one of the least-asshole gay guys he’s ever known in this city. It was really sweet of him and he was being quite a bit flirty with me today haha. Gosh we were so young when we lived together (I was 21, he and the other boys were 18).
That was even before I’d hooked up with the transgendered guy I’m mentioning here. Anyway, apparently Davey and I are going to try and catch up for lunch next week, although I think I may be in Sydney next week because it’s Mardi Gras, depending on how my tooth holds out.

So I should probably apologise to the guy I know for my behaviour. It’s just that I’ve always been against drugs and what they can do to people and I thought that’s all it was. I don’t know anyone else’s story, and I really shouldn’t judge.

The Ecuadorian guy is back in QLD, visiting for work. He wants to catch up again soon. I already know what that will entail. Unfortunately because of my teeth situation, I’m afraid to do pretty much anything involving my mouth. Looks like Mardi Gras next weekend will be pretty boring!

I realised that i had an account with KIK. I must’ve downloaded it at some point when I was over in Europe and completely forgot about it, so when I found out what my password was, I logged in and it must’ve automatically notified everyone else on my ‘friends list’ that I had it, so Angelo and a few others started chatting to me on there. I told him to let me know if he wants to grab a meal whilst we’re both down there, as we’ll both be by ourselves, but he’ll probably be having too much fun to worry about me.

Ryan’s already scheduled in a fuck for the day I arrive. LOL.