Rent, anal tear, no sleep. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I turned in my 2 most current paystubs and my rent will be the full amount and I’m really upset because it’s an extra $216 a month. It’s not terrible whatsoever and it’s doable but very upsetting. I felt that my caseworker wasn’t being very compassionate so I spoke to her supervisor. I will take them my next 2 paystubs and see if it goes back down but I’m only scheduled 32 hours a week so it’s bullshit that it’s so fucking high.

My anal tear has been worse than ever and I figured out why. The Adderall has made me constipated so I’m going to stop taking it for a few days and let the tear heal. I hate the withdrawl but there’s nothing I can do because I can’t handle being in pain or worry about when the pain will come back.

I was off today and really didn’t get much done but got some sleep and took a couple of hot baths because it helps with the pain. I’m going to bed nowl