Good or bad. in the day

I have noticed that I dont want the TV on or music
I have never been like this....I have always had noise
in my home…I think its because I am so worried about Randy.
I have an older sister Penny and we may talk once a year ,not me its her…you talk on her terms she will call you ,you cant call her..I know its really sad but thats the way she is..
well saturday she called and she knew nothing about Randy being hurt and she ask how Randy was and I said not good and explained …she was kinda shocked no one had told her..
how can you tell her something when you call her she always says ” tell me why you call and do it fast I am busy ..
she is retired & so is her husband....so is Patsy next oldest sister and her husband so is my brother and his wife..
Carolyn (next oldest ) & her husband and Randy and I are all
still working....wow I keep telling Randy I wish we was born earlier ,retirement sounds like a dream....I guess I shouldnt say this but I am scared....so many company people have called and the mail was full of papers to sign and send back..
I never knew getting hurt was this confusing …I guess thats why I am quite because in my head everything is so loud.....