Fuck everybody. in Since OD is shutting down....

So my day at work was pretty uneventful. I didn’t make much money and my day off yesterday was absolutely crazy. It was seriously one shit storm after another. I had a bunch of shit to do and everything took forever. I got my oil changed at 2pm and the guy ended up backing my car into a tire rack and knocking it out of alignment so I had to come back to have them fix it. I have a bent tie rod so they are going to put one in on Monday along with aligning it yet again. It was just a crazy, stressful, anger-provoking day. I didn’t take my brother’s kid because he called and started a fight about me giving her sweets and I just couldn’t deal with it on top of everything else so I didn’t take her last night.

I had asked Dan to come with me to get my oil changed so I had them put the right oil in and he didn’t. I guess he said something about it to my friend last night at work and said something about how the world doesn’t revolve around me. Ok, well this angers and saddens me all at the same time. I’ve never thought the world revolved around me in the 30 years I’ve been in existence. He just always has something mean to say about me and I just can’t take it anymore. Funny thing is, he tried to call me twice yesterday and once was after he said that!! WOW!!!

So, I’ve decided that I’m going to wait and see how much my taxes are and get the fucker fixed. It will run the way it was built to, even if it means I have to walk home after dropping it off somewhere. I’m not going to give up simply because no one is willing to help me in even taking it to have it looked at. I will figure it out one way or another. That car was my world for almost 9 years and now that I have her back, I will make her perfect like she used to be.

If I thought the world revolved around me, my car would be up and running by now!!! It has sat for 63 days now with not even one person coming through in looking at it or making any attempt to fix it.

I’m on my own with this, just like everything else in my life. I’m just so close to giving up on everything and a lot of it has to do with STILL having no support system. I really don’t have anyone to talk or vent to anymore and it’s really starting to get to me. I’m just a robot 6 days a week.

Goodnight.