Don't Ever Leave Me Again in Out in the Open

You stopped talking to me like we had no past, no history. It was as though I was just something ok to just throw away. Yes, I told you I couldn’t do it anymore. I didn’t have the strength to keep trying. But then you walked away and it all changed.
The first few days I was wasn’t expecting you to contact me. I was actually thankful for the break. Then the days turned into weeks. I still appreciated the way you gave me space. But then those weeks turned into months and my heart kind of broke. It felt as though it was so easy for you to walk away. Not look back.
I kept myself busy with life. I found myself very happy. I felt that maybe what you did was good. Maybe, just maybe you not in my life was good for me. No more wondering if or when you may or may not contact me. No more disappointments when you failed to contact me when I really hoped you would. Perhaps, around the 3 to 4 month mark, I had come to peace with it.
As life kept going on, I busied myself with work and friends. It was pretty much a normal life. A normal life with out you. However, occasionally thoughts of you would sneak into my head and I would re-read our emails, or check out your facebook. I wondered if you did the same. Then I’d go back to my normal life. My normal life with out you.
More time passed. Those months turned into a year. Still nothing. You even changed your messenger’s name to someone else’s name and moved to a different province in Canada. I still heard nothing from you.
Interestingly, even though it had been a year, inside my mind I knew you would somehow show up in my life again. I didn’t know where. I didn’t know when. However, you made a, what I consider a promise to me. I won’t go into it on the Internet of what that promise entailed, but we both know what it was. And we both know you would make good on that promise. Just as soon as you could.
While shopping yesterday I was contemplating buying a new heated blanket. As I looked over the blanket I wondered if perhaps, Amazon would have it cheaper. I lifted my phone and facebook’s screen was open. Your name flashed by as commenting on a post of mine. I read the comment over and over. It claimed you were only 45 miles from me. My hand shook. I replied to your comment and refreshed the page over and over. You didn’t reply. I stood there staring off into nothing. A million thoughts flashing through my head. It was a good 2 or 3 solid minutes before I snapped back into reality. I physically shook my head. I had to shake those thoughts. So many thoughts.
No one in this world could make me shake like that in a store. No one could make me freeze up like that. Only you. It’s extremely frustrating. But, I am ok with it now.
We chatted last night until 4 in the morning. Thank you for coming back.