January 4, 2016 in An Entry A Day 2016

I coughed so hard I gagged…twice this morning. It hurt so bad I was in tears in a desperate scramble to get some water. Funny how boyfriend’s little brother didn’t notice…too wrapped up in the game I guess. It snowed just a bit and I played ark.

Got stupidly angry at boyfriend because of some dumb reason but I way over reacted. I cried a good bit…I still feel really bad about that. I’m an emotional wreck for got knows why.

Hung out with Boyfriend and his friend/friends brother. My friend Jonathan was with them. I haven’t seen him in forever. He’s the stoner type…20 and would rather stay at his parents house stoned all day than get a job and start a life…hasn’t even finished highschool yet. Yeah. He’s a good person though. We had panera and then boyfriend and I went into Barnes n Noble, Saw Alpha, Sam, and Andrea. None of them really talked to me. I got Alpha to talk but it always feels so forced. We went to target so I could get some plates. Stopped at walmart for nasal spray so I can breathe.

Found out that Cole works at Target…I wanna throw up and never go their again all at the same time. I’ll suck it up though. It’s not worth it. He works in the back. Fingers crossed that I’ll never see him… That’s one less place I can apply to now, though. The list gets shorter.

Got home, set up the tv I got for christmas. Played ark for a few hours. Had a nice night with boyfriend…but I cried for no reason. Like I coughed and then suddenly i was hyperventilating with tears going down my face. What the fuck.

Last updated January 06, 2016