This Joy in Musings

I’m uncomfortable. Bloated. Still nauseous from time to time. I can’t brush my teeth or kiss my husband more than a few seconds without gagging. My headaches have gotten worse and I can’t take my usual medication. I’m beyond exhausted and can’t get through the day without a nap.

I’m anxious, too. I still haven’t seen this kid or heard a heartbeat. My mind wanders to every possible outcome. And of course I worry about the future. TWO kids. That’s double what I have now. And I think my life is busy now, how much is that going to change?

But at the end of the day, I’m pregnant. And I’m ridiculously lucky that it didn’t take long to happen. My desire to have another child grow inside of me has been fulfilled. And for now, I’m going to let that be enough and I’m going smile inspite of all that may try and distract me from this joy.