Life and it's funny twists. in Since OD is shutting down....

So, I get to work on Monday to discover that Dan will now be working at my location. DAN! I honestly thought I would never see or speak to this person again and then yeah…he ended up closing with me. I didn’t plan to talk to him and he stuck up on a conversation. We were both very pleasant but it was super awkward because we have a past. I am not sure how I plan to deal with this other than just be decent and hope things go okay with us working together again. I was super upset when I found out about this and honestly about blew chunks. Life was going along wonderfully and then God decided to have some kind of sick sense of humor to put Dan back in my life. Goody.

I’m honestly really sick of being at work and never getting enough sleep. I have a dog that lives next door that barks for hours at a time in the morning so sleep is impossible. I’m about to shoot the damn thing. I would have been able to sleep in this morning if it wouldn’t have been for that fucker barking. OMG I’m just so fucking irritated with everything!!!

I’m going to lay off the Adderall for a few days. I almost passed out again earlier today and I know it’s from drinking too much soda and taking Adderall. It just sucks because I’ve finally started to see a difference in my weight, feel better, be able to focus, and it’s kicked my appetite but I need to figure out how to take it and not drink soda because caffeine and Adderall is a lethal combo. I’m just scared I’m going to have a heart attack or something so I’m not going to take it today and hope I feel okay. I just hate that I get super lightheaded. I had to sit on the kitchen floor for a bit. I didn’t pass out this time but I had to sit down and just not move for about 5 minutes.

People in my life seriously piss me off. I’m just sick of people always asking for money, food, or some kind of favor. I’m also sick of feeling like I just have to help them for one reason or another too. People should learn how to fend for themselves like I have to do. I don’t have anyone I could ask for money, food, or any kind of help. I never have so it’s annoying when people ask me. I don’t enjoy doing things for other people because it’s always one sided.

I’m getting ready to leave soon because I have to go make my car note, put money in someone’s car, and buy some lip rings from some chick. I’m just so tired of never getting time for myself and having to take uppers to compromise my lack of sleep.

Fuck.