Merry Christmas! in Musings and Daily Events

It’s been quite a while hasn’t it?

Things got hectic and I got lazy/distracted.

School is done. I took all of my finals and am not simply waiting for my grades. Hopefully, I passed everything and will be graduating mid-January.

Being home all the time has been…an adjustment. My mom and I are constantly at each other’s throats. We’re too similar and need space.

I did a lot of Christmas shopping. I was able to get everyone something nice. I was even able to get stuff for my 3 nieces and nephew. It isn’t much. My parents got perfume and a little extra something. My aunt and uncle got a gift card to go enjoy a day at Cracker Barrel. My cousins got a small present that can be unwrapped (scarf, shirt, whatever I felt they would like) and a gift card for Starbucks (they all love Starbucks). My nieces and nephew got a pencil tin/box thing, with a set of pencils/erasers/sharpener, colored pencils, and a coloring/activity book. My youngest niece got a learn your ABCs, numbers, colors, etc… coloring book because she’s starting school next September. She’s a little young and my cousin is worried she won’t do too well. I said I would help teach her whenever I watch her. She’s really bright, I think she’ll be okay.

Let’s see what has happened as of late? M and I haven’t seen each other alone since the last time when we had sex. Now that I don’t take the train to school in the mornings, there just isn’t anytime. Maybe once I get a car we’ll figure something out. But other than that, it’s just been some flirting over text and teasing when I see him.

E got me the most thoughtful friken present ever.

We have this thing against today’s generation of youth…how everyone thinks they’re special and unique and how giving everyone the trophy (so to speak) is just enabling them to think that they are special in the mediocrity. So we’re like You’re not a special snowflake! And laugh and move on.

He got me a snowflake necklace and said, “I just want you to know, you’re my special snowflake.” I died. He also got me a build-a-bear wolf. He put a Christmas sweater on it because I adore Christmas sweaters and a santa hat because I love santa hats (I currently have 3). It’s the closest thing to a puppy he cold get me lol.

It’s just sweet, you know? I love that he put so much thought into it. I got him a sterling silver and chrome, mechanical, pocket watch and a set of pajamas.

E and I have been good. I miss him so much. I saw him on Sunday. I went up to have dinner at his family’s place. His mom does Christmas dinner the Sunday before Christmas for her side and she does it on Christmas day for her husbands side. His parents (mostly mom) got me a present too. They got me a Pandora bracelet. I just can’t. I love the fact that they actually like me. I was the only SO of one of their kids to get a present!

I really miss E. I wish he was here. I’ve been cuddling Snowflake so hard every night, practically on the verge of tears. It just hurts to be away from him. Snowflake is the wolf’s name, btw. I don’t remember if I mentioned that.

So I may or may not have a full time job. I’m uncertain. That’s one of the only complaints I have about the dealership I work for. They tell you things then are like, oh well wait I’m not sure if this is happening.

I was asked if I wanted a full time position doing what I’m doing.
I said yes.
Said position isn’t available…yet.
OKay so when....
I don’t know I need to take care of something first, probably after the holidays, the 1st or 2nd week of Jan.
Okay....
oh no wait actually be prepared to start working on the 28th of December....
okay no problem…
yeah I’ll be in touch....

Haven’t heard anything since. So I don’t know what’s going on.

I dunno. We’ll see what happens I guess…But, if I do get a full time job then I need to get a car. I’m not having my parents drive me to work everyday. It was fine for 2 days a week but it’s time.

Anyway, I’m off to bed. Good nigth all you lovely people!

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays!