Wednesday morning in New Diary

I made it to my therapy session. Therapist asked the usual questions. She asked about my depression and anxiety. I said the depression is good but the anxiety is a tad bit high. Said I was not troubled by SADD this year. She asked about the meds and then I said they are working good . She asked if me and my fiancé were getting along and I said yes. She asked if we are getting out and I said no but I did say we went to Eat n Park and Wal Mart last Sunday. I said both places were packed with people and I don’t do very well around a lot of people She asked how I managed it and I said I just sat there and listened to Elaine and my fiancé talk.

Then we got down to business. I told her about my worker. I said my worker brings her girlfriend into my apartment. She said that was not right and she asked what I was going to do about it. I said nothing. She said can’t you talk to your worker about it. I said I afraid she will get mad and quit and I would be without help. She said we need to talk about how you will lelt yo8ur feelings be known. I said I really feel imposed upon.. I said I like her. I said she does a good job but I don’t like her girlfriend coming every day. I feel imposed upon. She said I need to tell them tat. I said I am a wimp.

Therapist said I am not a wimp I am very kind. But she said that was not a good situation. My worker should not be brining her gf to work. It is against policy. I said I know. She said they are taking advantage of your kindness. I said you are probably right. She asked if I was going to tell them about and it is a bad situation. Eventually your feelings will come out. I said I will probably tell them about it if it keeps up.

I wasn’t feeling good. when I went to my appointment. My arthritis was acting up really bad. She asked how I was feeling and I told her about the arthritis. After we were finished talking about the worker situation she asked if there was anything else. I said no. She said you look like you are ready to go home I said yes I am. I’m not feeling too good. So that ended our therapy session.

I went strait home. I stopped at Chococlatechip’s apartment. We talked for a while. She said she had company this afternoon. Her oldest daughter and two of her four children came for a visit. They had a nice time. Only the boy was buy her air bed she was worried that something might have happened to her bed. I told her your bed is probably all right. Then I would ask if she would like to come to my place for a cup of coffee . She said she could use a cup.

When we got to my place I fixed a cup of coffee. Remembering my problem from yesterday I did not any. We talked for a while. She had an appointment with her therapist in the morning. We go to the same agency. I talked with her about my appointment. Then she got on the computer. I washed breakfast dishes.

She stayed for supper. I cooked supper. I fixed a skillet dinner. It was Yankee pot roast and it turned out pretty good. We played a game of 500 rum after supper. She really beat me good in that game. Then we watched the local news which had some interesting stories.

I didn’t read lasty night. I was tired. Watched Jeopardy and Wheel of Fourtune. Thgen I turned on Nancy Grace. She was talking about Bill Crosby. She had that one girl on that Nancy Dickenson. She was yet again talking about how Bill raped her. I didn’t watch thee entire show. I fell asleep.

I woke up at midnight. I had a weird dream. I was dreamt that that I was in a hospital They are having a party on the floor above me. They aware making a lot of noise and disturbing everyone on my floor.Some of us tyried to put a stop to it. We loosed the ceiling tile or something. People began falling through a whole. I remember there was this one woman who was drunk that ended up in the nurses station. After that we went up to the floor trying to find the party goers. But we could not find them.

We were looking all over the hospital f or the people in the party. In the process we found out a lot of things wrong with that hospital. There was a couch in a waiting area. It was full of bugs. Then doctors were drinking while on duty. We found this one doctor laying on the bed of a patient., He was drunk. He was yelling that he is not going to sign anything today.

Then we found out that there was a group of people involved in illegal operations. There was a baby selling racket. We caught this one woman from India. She bought a baby on a black market. We got some of the guys that were involved and we were torturing him trying to g et him to confess as to what happened to the babies. Then I woke up.

It is 2am right now. Can’t get back to bed. Waking up at midnight is not fun at all NOt fun at all. Going to try to go back to sleep

Last updated December 22, 2015