Tuesday morning in New Diary

I did a lot of reading in my book Plan of Attack by Bob Woodward. I was reading about how some in the administration was opposed to war with Iraq. Collin Powell was Secretary of State. He was opposed. I remember reading that he and Bush had a two hour meeting one day. Powell laid out his arguments against invasion. He said that it would destabilize the Mid East . Friendly governments might not support the U.S anymore or even be overthrown. He said the invasion could affect gas prices and the flow of oil to allied nations. Powell wanted to give diplomacy a chance. He said Bush should go to the U and ask for more resolutions to get weapons inspectors back in Iraq. He also felt that Sadam could be contained by a coalition.

But it seems that most members of the administration were in favor of war with Iraq. Dick Cheney, the Vice President, was a real war hawk. He was urging that something be done about Sadam before 9/11 He did not trust the UN> He felt more resolutions would be useless. Even if they could get weapons inspectors back they would not be effective and easily deceived. He felt that Sadam had WMD and might use them against the U.S or friendly nations. The only way to stop this was a preemptive strike to topple the regime.

I read for an hour an a half last night. Really got into my book. I began watching tv around 9 . I couldn’t find anything interesting. I have 180 channels and cannot find anything interesting to watch., When I watch tv I have it on Channel 9, a local channel or CNN I am not really a fan of tv It is to have and keeps me company at night. I would rather be reading or on the computer

I love to read and play chess. I found this one website called Chess Corner. Here you can play correspondence tyoe chess. I have several games going on at the same time. I can spend hours trying to figure out my next move. I get caught up in these games and forget about everything. I’m not a good player though. But out of s seven games I think I might win at least three of them

I did not sleep very well last night. I was up a good bit. Then I drank too much coffee yesterday. I hd to go to the bathroom several times. When I did fall a sleep I had some weird dreams. I had this one dream where I was taking a math test. I was doing all right on it until I got to the end. The questions were all confusing. I couldn’t complete the test and I knew I would flunk it. Then I had a dream about this man I used to work with. He was setting up tents or something. I was trying to help him but screwed up my end. He got pissed off at me big time.

I slept in today and didn’t get up till 8:30. I was already dressed and ready for my worker. She did not show up. This is the second day in a row. I think these people are not very reliable. This is my third worker with this agency. The first one quit after a month. The second was a real trip. She could not cook. The third brings her gf with her which I do not mind . But I think this vio8lates policy and ethical standards or something like that. I would like to try a different agency

12:07pm I fixed pancakes for breakfast now I have a sink full of dirty dishes. I don’t feel like doing them. I feel stiff and sore. I used Ben Gay and that helped a little bit. Think I will take an Ibuprofen as well. I have a therapy appointment at 2 this afternoon. I do not f eel like going But I better go since I missed the last session. They close you out if you miss too many appointments and I need to see the doctor for psych meds.

Sometimes I think going to therapy is a waste of time. I do not seem to be getting too much out of my therapist. She ask me a lot of questions such as rate my depression, anxiety and stuff like that. She spends a lot of time typing info into the computer. I have stuff to say to her but I feel as though she is not paying much attention. She does not offer too much feed back. I feel kind of frustrated because we do not talk about anything of to much importance.

I suppose I could talk to her about my lesbian home health care aid. I could talk to her about how she brings her girlfriend in with her. I can imagine her response. If I do not like the situation I can call the agency. But I do not want to call the agency I don’t want to get anyone in trouble. Besides I do not really mind her coming. I like the company. I just do not like how they seem to take over everything once they get here .

Damn arthritis is acting up today. Hips are sore and stiff. Feel very uncomfortable with this. Tried to read but couldn’t get into my book this morning. I was hurting tooo much. I will read for a couple hours tonight.

Well that is about it for now. Going to go read and drink some coffere

Last updated December 22, 2015