Friday morning in New Diary

Thursday morning was very interesting. My worker came and she asked me if I would like to meet her girlfriend. I said sure. I thought she would come in and say high then leave. Anyways the girlfriend stayed the entire hour and a half. She talked non stop telling me about her family and how she lost her grandmother last Christmas. I remember she was saying tthat she was raised by her step father and considered him to be her real dad. I had a hard time following her conversation because she talked so fast.,

Anyway my worker was telling me that we ought to get together. I am not sure about this. I am very cool that she is gay or something called pansexual. But I am leery of letting her into my life. She asked me if it would be ok if they could come up on the weekend some time. I didn’t know what to say about that. I was starting to get uncomfortable. I would like to keep this relationship on a strictly professional basis

I like my worker, I really do. She does a good job in keeping my apartment clean. She also fixes me breakfast. I really appreciate all the help that she provides for me. But I don’t know about getting close to her. I have a girlfriend. I am as satisfied with that relationship. I do not want anything to come between us. and I am thinking t hat if a third party enters the picture their might be problems. I don’t want anything to screw up my relationship with Chocolatechip.

I learned the hard way that you have to be very careful who you let into your life. I am like that with anyone regardless of ethnicity, skin color, sexual orientation. I’ve been burned once big time and I am not trusting or open. I’m very accepting of others. But I have a shitty attitude it is like leave me be and you can do whatever that floats your boat.

Oh well I had a good day yesterday. Arthritis pain was manageable. My shoulders were aching in the morning I took an Ibuprofen. That helped somewhat. After my worker and her girlfriend left I helped my fiancé with her groceries. from the food pantry. Then I did some reading. I started reading my new book Plan of Attack by Bob Woodward. I think I am going to enjoy this book

Had a good supper and had a good time with Chocolatechip. In the evening I had computer problems abain. I turned off the computer and when I tried to start it again it would not start. I was panicking for a while. I thought something was seriously wrong with the computer. I finally figured out how to fix the problem I had to refresh the hard drive. It took about an hour but it seems to be working fine. I do not know about this computer sometimes.

In the meantime I watched tv. I had on Nancy Grace. She had a good program. She was talking about this one teen in Texas. He killed four people in a drunk driving accident He got off and had to do some sort of probation. Anyway he turned eighteen. He went on the lamb with his mother Police and FB I are both looking for him. e

Then I watched an interesting show about Adolph Hitler. It was talking about his early life and how he turned into a monster. I didn’t see the full episode. I fell asleep.

I woke up early today at 5. Hate getting up early I tried going back to bed bit couldn’t sleep. Chocolatechip called. She wanted to come up for a cup of coffee and a smoke. I said sure. We had a nice visit. Had my coffee and am ready to face another day.

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Last updated December 18, 2015