evan news. [yes once again] in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

we had a fight last night [midnight] into this morning [2 a.m.]. i think. maybe. [well we either did or didn’t]. no i mean i’m just so damn tired right now and have been that i don’t remember it all and what i do remember i don’t remember it accurately.
so anyway. So last night one of us calls the other. he’s outside [well not outside my mom’s but outside of denver somewhere. er i mean he’s in denver outside somewhere. yeah there we go] and he’s hammered [yes i know he only told me this like 2 or 3 times]. cause he’s had 2 40 oz. beers. and i’m getting annoyed w/ him and i’m already pretty annoyed in general and so i’m like
well at least one of us can hold their liquor’ that being me. and yeah that was a shot at him. so um then at some point in time after i’m like ‘well you’re just gonna leave me too so not like it matters’ and he’s lmike ‘well a lot matters’. and then he well it was either before or after that that he said something like ‘well i’m pissed too cause people have left me but i don’t hate everyone’ and that shut me up for about a minute and i’m like ‘i.........oh god. no i love you and i don’t hate. anyone’.
and then. at some point after i did something stupid and calmed down bc of that the doing something stupid and i textmailed him and i’m like ‘call if you want. i’ll be nice and if i’m not i’ll hang up’. and something about how i push him away cause it’s easier then him leaving me that way it won’t hurt as much and i feel like i have control. and. like i said i’m tired and really can’t be bothered right now to c + p the texts, so.
but we’re ok now. i asked him that this morning when i was calmer. yeah but that’s the thing is we’re just ok not good and before this we were good.