it doesn't feel right. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

yes more on this. it doesn’t feel right.enjoying things right now. like idinno music. cause if i were to do more stuff i enjo i’d feel like i was ignoring what was going on. well i mean i enjoy drinking but it’s more that i drink to get drunk or that’s the idea anyway. than to just drink. but even before this before he…went i didn’t do a lot of stuff i enjoy, so. it’s not all that er specific to this. like it’s regardless. there are. various reasons why i don’t.
i know the people who have left us well i presume i don’t know would want us to do things we enjoy. but maybe they’d understand. hopefull. you know honestly the reason i haven’t come to terms w/ Pat’s. leaving is cause i feel like if i did i’d forget all of it. of him. and i don’t want to ever do that.