Saturday Afternoon in New Diary

I missed yesterday. My computer was in the shop, s. I just got it back this morning., I was glad to get it back., Really missed this place and missed writing in my journal.

I sort of had a bad day yesterday. We had the Christmas dinner in our building. Chocolatechip and and I went. They always have a nice dinner. They had some important people. District Attorney of Hancock county was there along with another lawyer and board members. Dinner consisted of turkey, mashed potatoes and peas., Food was pretty good.

I got a tad bit paranoid. When I go to these functions nobody speaks to me. I think people hate me because I used to be a crossdresser. I kept thinking people were talking about me. I stayed for the entire function and despite the paranoia I had a good time. But I am seriously thinking of not going next year. I get tired going to these parties and ending up sitting there like a log.

Chocolatechip look great. She had a new dress in the party. It really looked good on her. I had my eyes focused on her the entire time. I didn’t notice who all was there or who didn’t show up.

Despite the dinner I had a bad day. I had $20 in my wallet. I found out that it was missing. I do not know how it is missing. I am thinking my worker could have took it while I was in the shower. Then, stupid me, I sometimes leave the door unlock when I leave my apartment. Sometime could have been watching my apartment and gotten in when I was gone. I don’t know who stole the money but it was gone and I was going to use that for laundry money.

Going to the party and losing my money like that got me depressed and paranoid. I kept thinking somebody is watching me all the time. I do not know if I can t rust my worker. I am not going to accuse her or call the agency about it because I do not know for sure she took it. I do not know who; took the money. All I know is I had $20 in my wallet a nd now it is gone and have no money for laundry month. Grrr

I am almost finished with this one book I’m reading i’m reading Bush at War. I hope to get it finished sometime this weekend. Next up ix Plan of Attack by the same author.

Yes I am not having a good day. I keep thinking about the $20 that I lost or was stolen. Grrr. I keep trying to figure out who might have done it. I haven’t a clue. Not knowing and thinking somebody could have bee in my apartment is really getting to me. Feel very violated right now. This is not a good feeling. It is not a good feeling at all.

Last updated December 12, 2015