Progress Report in Magical Realism

So after all that I ate well for the rest of the work day with intent of going to HIIT and yoga after work, then grocery shopping for healthy foods and early bed before SWIM PRACTICE. Instead I got caught up in work stuff, missed class and met A for dinner. When I got there A was at the bar and had a vodka soda waiting for me (at my own request mind you, because it was the end of happy hour and I am a MAXIMIZER.) We ate at the bar and I started off decently with a grilled chicken salad. Then we had another round (again not a surprise, they were buy one get one, from happy hour) and THEN the bartender asked us to do a shot of Jameson with him. (And how can we say no to shots of something neither of us even like that, because it’s FREE? Ugh.) That turned into martinis at our local because we were just so immersed in our conversation and each other. Which then turned into a cup of tea at home which in theory is great but in reality we ended up ignoring the tea and just ravaging each other for two hours. Which again, in theory is great but maybe not the best idea from 1-3am on a Monday night.

Tuesday morning we of course missed swim practice. Other than that, it was a surprisingly productive day work-wise but really only fueled by necessity caused by procrastination to that point. There was nothing in the house to eat so A came home and bought pizza (on my request!) I did some more work and we went to bed early.

This morning I woke up before my alarm, in plenty of time for swim practice, and just lay there. I don’t know what the EFF IS WRONG WITH ME.

My friend from grad school posted a great quote, here it is:
An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy. “It is a terrible fight and it is between two wolves.
One is Evil – he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.”
He continued, “The other is Good – he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you – and inside every other person, too.”
The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?”
The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.”

I feel like my Evil wolf has eaten my Good wolf whole.

Last updated November 19, 2015