Not enough sleep, drinking, work is great. in Since OD is shutting down....

So I’ve just been crazy busy lately and haven’t gotten the chance to write because I have my niece on Friday nights and I’ve been working so much and having co-workers over after work every night and we stay up ridiculously late so I don’t get up and have time to get things done and write but there’s plenty that’s gone on and I finally have time to write about it.

I’m definitely fucking tired but because the Strattera didn’t work out, they prescribed me another round of Adderall and I ordered my Concerta a couple of days ago so hopefully that will be just as great as the Adderall because it’s free and I want it to help with my appetite and my weight loss stuff. The Strattera made me super hungry and tired when it wore off and did nothing towards helping me keep focused. I honestly was hungry a lot and when I finally got to eat, I would literally eat myself sick which was spiking my blood sugar and I felt like shit. Thank God I at least have the Adderall now and I’m praying that Concerta will be just as amazing.

Work is going great. One of the managers that I work with is quitting and I have mixed emotions about it because I honestly like her as a person, but as a manager she’s bossy, immature, loud, disrespectful, and have absolutely NO FILTER AT ALL. I was so sick of hearing her tell my other co-workers how we don’t have friends, we don’t have lives, and then last night she told me I was a piece of shit. Not sure why but it pops out and she immediately apologized but it hurt my feelings. She doesn’t think before she speaks and it’s super irritating. Well, everyone that I work with hates her. Completely loathe her. Well, she put in her 2 weeks notice the other day after getting into a fight with a cook and then kinda took it back but I guess she had an interview serving somewhere this morning and her last day is the 30th.

I’ve honestly never seen a manager more hated than this girl and it makes my heart sad because she really is a good person but is socially retarded. She doesn’t know how to be nice to people and then gets upset that we all hang out when we aren’t working. We were all making plans to hang out a couple of nights ago and she was getting upset that she wasn’t getting an invite and it’s like, does she ever wonder why?! She’s an asshole at work so it’s not that shocking if people don’t wanna hang out with her outside of work!!!! She honestly needs to understand that you can’t treat people like shit and expect them to love you!!!

Anyways, tomorrow will be 2 weeks since I’ve seen or spoke to Dan. I still have absolutely no interest in having anything more to do with him. I’m very grateful that it’s over and I have my life back. I slept with some dude a few nights ago. It wasn’t good sex and haven’t heard from him since. I think he was pissed that I didn’t give him a ride home because I was fucking drunk!!! My friend had parked behind me earlier in the night and then by the time this guy wanted to roll out, I had about 3 beers and 4 shots so when we got outside, I sighed some relief when I had remembered my friend parked behind me!!! Kinda annoyed at myself for not just saying no but I didn’t want him spending the night but I basically ditched out on him. I told him I was going to try and wake up my friend or find his car keys and I came back inside and told him I couldn’t find them and my friend wouldn’t wake up so he had to walk!!!

It was stupidity on my part to not have just said no to begin with but I was drunk, really tired and just wanted to get it over with but yeah, I will definitely say no in the future. Again, still don’t know how to people get by without their own car. I don’t even know how I keep finding pieces of shit that don’t have cars but it’s really starting to get old!!! I’m really glad that my friend parked behind me and he was like almost touching my bumper so there was no way to get my car out, he probably saved me from a DUI and he didn’t even know it because he was passed out but Thank God for small favors!!!

It really pisses me off that this person seriously didn’t have any regard for me knowing how much I’d had to drink AND wanted me to drive them home?!?!? Like are you that much of a fucking asshole?!?! I would NEVER ask someone who’s that fucked up to give me a ride! That is just fucking wrong because not only could they up in serious shit legally, but that’s putting lives in jeopardy!!! It is absolutely shocking how selfish people can really be and it reminds me why I can’t have relationships. I have NEVER treated anyone so ungratefully like people have done to me so I think that’s why things get to me as much as they do.

I got my period yesterday. I didn’t have time to change my fucking tampon and get my blood on the seat of my car. I was absolutely fucking livid. The spot isn’t as noticeable as I thought it was yesterday but I’m still gonna have to figure out what to buy to get the fucking stain out because that’s fucking gross!! I’d like to just buy a seat cover but they are super expensive for my kinda car. I think I’m going to get some Mossy Oak seat covers but I gotta see how much is left in my account after paying my bills online.

I have some co-workers over. They are watching a movie in the livingroom. I’m going to join them when we start a new movie. I can’t believe it’s already 2am. This night went super fast. I’ve been hanging out with them about every night. The manager that everyone hates came over last night and nobody wanted her here but I told them maybe if we kill her with kindness and include her in stuff, maybe it will be make her nicer at work. Well now that she’s for sure quitting, we will probably still invite her but it’s not an excessive need to try and befriend her outside of work. I was annoyed with her last night because she didn’t leave until about 3am and all of us wanted her gone about an hour after she got here. I get annoyed with her because she loves to tell all of us that we don’t have friends, we have no lives and she told me last night I was a piece of shit. Yup, management material. Thank God we only have 11 more days to worry about her.

Things are going good though. I’m kinda sick of never being by myself though. I’m going to make sure everyone knows that I will have my niece Friday night so everyone’s gonna have to make other plans if they wanna hang out. I must spend time with my angel. I miss her, I haven’t seen her since Sunday and honesty feel like a piece of shit by partying and having a social life. I know that I wouldn’t see her anyway because she’s in bed by the time I get off work but I take her any chance I get. I love her more than life itself and it kills me that I don’t get nearly enough time with her. We are opening a new store about 7 hours away and a bunch of people I work with are going for awhile to help open it and train new employees and I hope I don’t somehow get roped into it. I know it’s only for 10 days but that would probably mean I wouldn’t see my niece for 2 weeks,depending on when I got back. I know I go days without seeing her now but I can’t go 10-14 days. No way!

Anyways, I should probably go be social and hope to be in bed before dawn. I’ve been up crazy late every single night and it’s making it hard to get shit done. My cable bill was due 12 days ago and finally paid it tonight. I’ve just been so busy. I’m only scheduled til 8pm tomorrow night and I’m hoping it’s dead so I can go see my niece before she goes to bed. I hate only seeing her on Fridays. I plan to ask for 2 days off a week once everything is caught up and I just don’t feel comfortable asking right now because I’ve only been back for 5 weeks and I told them I’d work a lot so they’d allow me to come back.

More later.