Funds.. in A Day in the Life of Me

I don’t want to do it now, cause I feel its the wrong time of year, everyone is already strapped and pulling on the purse strings, but I think at some point in the new year, I may look into restarting the gofundme again, to get rid of the lawyer bill if my personal finance situation hasn’t improved.
Love M to pieces, but I am starting to feel that she is taking advantage of the fact that she is helping us with this under the assumption that when D is able to work again he will automatically be able to pay her back, and that even though I have a full time job and now also a part time one too, we are at her beck and call…
I kinda wanna see if I could raise the money on there to pay off not only what is left owing, but what we also owe her as well which is currently a grand.
I am just not good first of all with owning ppl money. drives me nuts. makes me uncomfortable, especially in the fact that we can not pay her back right now as all the money I bring in goes to the household. I am having a hard enough time putting anything aside for xmas…

That being said, I struggle with it because I hate asking ppl for help like this.