Taking a step back in The start of something?

So here’s the thing.
I have a tendency to become obsessive. This is not something unknown to me and I try to keep a lid on it.

I started recording how much I was running in this diary as I wanted to keep myself in check. I stopped writing because I was increasing my distances and I guess I wanted to stay in denial.
This week I’ve put the brakes on but here is what my routine was last week.

Weekdays.... Get up at 3.20am. Run at least 14 of my 17.2 kms. Catch a train to work that gets me into the city and hour and half before I start, walk at least another 7kms before work.
Walk at least 2 kms during my lunch break....
Weekends… get up anytime before 7am, walk/run at least 32kms, usually more but that was my minimum.

I guess it’s no wonder that I had a stress fracture a few months ago, and now I have some other type of injury. I’m not sure if it’s arthritis or what… aside from that, my legs are also in constant pain. Just a general ache from the knees down. This mainly affects me at night though.

So this week, I’ve decided to rewrite my fitness routine.
I’m not running at all. I’m walking 4-5kms when I get up (at 4.30am – I like mornings)
I still get into the city an hour and a half before work but just do a casual 6kms instead of rushing through to complete at least 7kms.
I’ll stroll around at lunch time… probably do 1-1.5kms…

And that’s it.
I’m pretty depressed about it as I’m scared I’ll get fat like last time I stopped running.
I’m also depressed that I now can’t eat what I want… Last week I was pretty much eating what I wanted (always healthy foods though) because I could.. Now I have to watch what I eat again…

I must admit, I do like not being stressed about what time I go to bed now that I’m up an hour later…
I know hubby likes it as my obsessions take a toll on him. Plus the treadmill is really really noisy and often he doesn’t finish work till 11pm… so you can imagine how annoying it was to hear it going off at 3.30am probably not long after he’d gotten to sleep…

Anyhow, hopefully I won’t get caught up into my web of obsession again. Hopefully I can keep myself in check