Worst Mood 02-07-2010 in Out in the Open

Worst Mood and Pictures Sunday, February 07, 2010

I have been in the absolutely worst mood the last few days. Everything pisses me off. I can't hold on to anything. I have tripped, spilled things, dropped things, and completely absent minded. Being that way pisses me off.

Other than that, my diet has not been working. I have lost no weight. (haven't gained) I am trying but nothing is happening. This depresses me and makes me want to eat. That in return makes me mad and pisses me off.

I am doing everything in my power to not let it show in front of Lily. However, I am human and have slipped up a few times. This makes me sad because she doesn't understand that mommies get upset too.

I have this little cat toy that meows obnoxiuosly. It goes absolutely mad. It carriies on for a good 45 seconds when you push the button. Lily found it the other day and pushed the button. This scared her like no other. Her bottom lip came out and tears started flowing. I picked her up and sat down in the rocker. She grabbed on to me so tight she was actually choking me. She stayed there for almost 10 minutes holding on tight. The whole situation made me feel good that I could be there for her, but bad that she had to feel so much fear. It's a weird feeling, being a mother sometimes. I feel so much all at once with her. She's just so innocent and so nieve and so lovable that I hurt inside sometimes. I don't like it when she feels fear. I want to keep her from all that is scary. sigh

Gotta go study physiology now.

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Hope you start feeling better! We all have those kind of days. I hate them.

She has beautiful eyes. [prettylittlekitty] 2/7/2010 9:56:06 PM
she is still as gorgeous as ever! [muted exposure] 2/7/2010 10:13:38 PM
She is stunning...I just love her eyes! I love the age she's at too. It's still one of my favorite ages so far, and Katie is 7 1/2 now! :-) [Mommy2Katie] 2/8/2010 12:13:26 AM
I would suggest that if you have a sensible weight reduction plan in place, just to keep doing it, and not to weigh yourself more then twice a month. If your plan takes in less calories then you burn off, eventually your body will have no choice but to start burning fat. Just don't make it rebel against you thinking that it's being starved. It's a very fine balance. [Pickled Duck Lips] 2/8/2010 2:20:35 PM
At this point I'm only losing about a pound every other week if that. But I'm ok with that. The slower the weight loss the better the chance of it staying off long term. Besides, we still have several months before the warm weather hits and fun clothes shopping season.

Lilly is adorable by the way. [Pickled Duck Lips] 2/8/2010 2:22:28 PM
i actualy saw you there for a sec [Doller Bill] 2/9/2010 7:00:36 PM
Aww.. she's getting so big. Sorry to hear that your feeling crappy. [Arkantos's Dream]