Finally. in Since OD is shutting down....

I want to start off by saying I am so sorry for not writing sooner. Life has been absolutely crazy busy for me lately and today I don’t have but a few minutes so I’m going to say as much as I can in just a few words so I can get everyone caught up. I’ve had many notes asking if I’m okay and everything so I’m wanting to catch everyone up and let everyone know I’m doing a lot better.

So......I have finally got back to our other location. I’ve been back for about a week an a half now. After tirelessly begging, I was finally allowed. They let me return on the 15th, where I ended up working 12 hours that day and last week I don’t know how many hours I put in but I did 30 hours in 3 days. I finished yesterday with 45 hours for the week and needless to say, I’m exhausted.

I slept good last night and got up this morning, ran some errands and then took a small nap. I am still super tired and hoping work goes fast so I can come home and pass back out. I’ve been doing 6 days a week and my only day off is Friday again. The only reason I’ve been able to keep myself going being so sleep deprived is because of energy drinks and Addy’s. I know this isn’t healthy and I’m going to crash eventually but I’ve worked so hard to come back and I have to just deal with working 6 days a week for now.

It’s been awesome being back. I’m able to make real money and financially, I’m already in a better spot. Once I’m able to get everything caught up and get full coverage back on my car (I only have liability for now) and have some in the bank, I will feel content again.

I’m hoping for a good sized paycheck so I’ll have some left after paying rent so I can buy a new phone. The phone I have is completely going to shit and is getting worse by the day. It doesn’t hold a charge at all, it runs super slow and I have to constantly delete stuff so it can update the apps that I need. I am also super sick of being pre-pay but I know how bad you can get screwed by being on a contract so I’m not willing to go that route.

Things with Dan.....well not sure where to start. We’ve been doing alright for awhile now and then the sex thing came up again. He brought it up the other day and then backed out last minute. I’m not sure what to say or do. I honestly don’t have the time or energy to put too much thought into this situation. I’m so much happier now that I’m back at our other location and life make sense again that I really don’t care if I have a boyfriend or not. I don’t see this working out and every time I turn around, we are right back to not talking and what not so I’m just going to live my life and if I hear from him great and if not, I’m going to be sleeping with other people. I’m done with this selfish game of his.

Anyways, I’m gonna go smoke and start getting woke up. I really hope I don’t feel this tired all night or I’m going to lose it.