A Quickish Update 01-03-2010 in Out in the Open

A Quickish Update Sunday, January 03, 2010

It's been forever since I have written. I have been so busy that I can't keep up with myself.

Lily is growing up so fast I can't even believe it. She is walking, talking, and the girl has jokes! She tries to sing and she still loves to dance. She knows a few signs (I am trying to teach her sign language). She can sign "more", "no", "bath", and "milk". She can say, "Mom, Grandpa, Cracker, cookie, no, shoe, see, and baby."

Christmas was absolutely amazing. It was just a short few years ago that I began to dread Christmas time. I hated the fact that I had to go to my family's home alone. I began to feel un-needed, like I had no purpose. Lily has given me so much. I look forward to holidays again. I absolutely LOVE watching her. Sometimes I tear up thinking about how lucky I am to have her in my life. She makes me laugh. She makes me cry. She makes me mad. She makes me worry. But mostly, she makes me feel. It's been so long since I have had that... that sensation of feeling emotion. Sometimes I am so happy that my whole body feels week with emotion. It's hard to explain. All I know iis that I am feeling purpose now and it has changed my life.

I am still in school. I finished one term. I got two 4.0's and a 3.0. I have to retake the 3.0 class because it's not good enough. My next term starts monday and I am taking Sign Language, Physics, and Intro to Physiology. These are the classes that I started when I got pregnant for Lily and had to drop. After I pass these classes, I am done with the boring classes. The rest will be all health classes and useful classes including Sign Language (the second class).

Lily's Christmas Dress

That's all for now.

Her

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she is so beautiful! [muted exposure] 1/3/2010 10:18:40 PM
Glad you had a wonderful holiday! She is so pretty!! [prettylittlekitty] 1/4/2010 1:18:56 PM
god your kid is so beautiful! she is so big now [predhead] 1/5/2010 11:29:48 AM
I hear ya, sometimes I miss having big emotions.