Just some time to think in Musings and Daily Events

It’s Monday! So that means I have some time to just think and do what I need to do.

I sent out some emails and did my good deeds for the day. Now I’m just going to sit and write and relax.

My mom and I talked a lot today. Not about anything in particular but we had some decent conversations and no one fought. So that’s good at least. When we keep the conversation light everything is fine.

We butted heads a few times last night. But, then like 10 minutes later she’s fine. It’s weird and confusing but whatever. So long as I’m not getting yelled at.

Matt wanted to bang today and I just wasn’t up to it. I think I’m going to cut things off with him. The lack of intimacy and his young bootycall mentality isn’t what I want.

He knows intimacy makes sex better, but he doesn’t know how to be intimate with someone and not be in a serious relationship with them. It’s hard to do, I’m not knocking him on that. I couldn’t do it for a while either. But I want someone who can be intimate without needing the possession.

I’m going to fuck him at least once more. I love the way he fucks. Then it’s over. lol.

I saw M today. I pretty much ignored him.

I had to go into work because I “forgot” (I just wanted to go in and see M let’s be honest) my charger. So of course, I casually stroll in (looking great might I add)
That’s pretty much how I look but without the lip ring. But tits, glasses, hair, and nose ring are all on point.

So I stroll in grab the charger, pretty much ignore him and walk out. That’s what you get for ignoring me for a week.
Then he texted me and was like someone’s mad. I said no I’m fine. He said you looked great today. I said thanks I’m seeing someone later. And now I’m not mad. Because I thought of his smile. And how upset he was when I walked out without saying much to him. And fuck my stupid heart just melts around him.

sigh So we texted back and forth a few times and he isn’t answering me. Again. Hopefully because of work. Probably because who the fuck knows.

He said he missed me this passed week, while he was off. I told him I missed him too.

I don’t think he got any of my drunk texts so that’s good at least.

I have no clue what to write about..