it was time and. this morning. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

um. i don’t know.

so this morning my mom calls me at 5 a.m. when.......i’m still awake and haven’t slept. anita [oh yeah that’s the lady i’m currently living w/. right still haven’t written about that. i’m so behind. um anyway] um.........yeah she knocks on my door and tells me my mom’s on the phone. my mom tells me that my grandmother um ‘left’and that did i want to come and see her. i tell her i don’t know since i’d never seen a...........someone like that outside of like on tv. so i still feel like it would’ve been weird. um. so i didn’t go.
i was planning to go and see my grandmother later than 5 this morning which. didn’t happen since she, you know. ‘left’ us.
i think it was time for her to go. she’d been having problems w/ her health. she had surgery awhile back and then at some point before that she um fell out of bed. and then just recently she broke her leg, so. and then like.......5 yrs. ago was when i was aware of her alcoholism. so you know. also she was 90.