Just Confused in 2015

This is what we’re told when we talk to Mom. She doesn’t understand where she is but knows the name of the hospital. She doesn’t understand why she’s there. My brother asked her today if she felt that being back at the nursing home was the right place she didn’t answer but when he asked her if being back home was the answer she told him she knew that was gone and that she just was confused. It just breaks my heart.

I find myself alone again seems that I do that more often than not now in the evenings. CJ is working Faith and Bobby have gone to bed and as Shawn has no meeting tonight they are with him. Heather and family are in the bedroom watching the tv and me alone with my pups. Sometimes I feel just as alone as I felt in England. I know I’m not but I just do.