An interesting few days in Musings and Daily Events

Let’s see what happened.

On Friday it was just a usual work day. I flirted with M and went about my usual day of answering phones and making appointments for clients. I went over to Matt’s place and we just kind of sat and talked for a bit. This is usually where I say, “Things got heated” but that didn’t happen. It was very much like, “So how are we going to do this?” There was really no segway into it. Just right down to business.

We banged. I got off a bunch of times. It was alright. He has kind of an awkward curve which made things a little difficult. Banging from the back was AMAZING. He enjoyed my blowjob(s) and got off on that.

Overall, the experience was rather mediocre.

I forgot how....unsatisfying(?) sex with someone who doesn’t really have much of an interest in anything other than sex is. Don’t get me wrong. I enjoyed the act itself. I got off. But, I don’t know, something was missing.

There’s a difference (in my head anyway) between a fuck buddy and a friend with benefits. I like having an established relationship with my partners. I like being able to talk about our day, our selves, and being friends (maybe more than friends if it calls for that) and then getting into it if we felt like it. Fuck buddies are people you call when you just want sex, you know? Which I don’t mind but, I don’t know I thought Matt and I would be friends.

It doesn’t seem that way. I don’t mind him being a fuck buddy. I was just expecting (in that moment) for it to be slightly different. So now I know, and now I’ll text him (or vice versa) when I need a decent bang.

I saw E last night. We went out to dinner and it was a great night. We talked and ate and drank. I had some beer and a bottle of wine. I was drunk lol. Then I gave him a blowjob in the car and he fingered me. God it was amazing. He gets me off like no one can. Then we drove around for a while and it was just nice. I love spending time with him.

He starts work tomorrow. He’s excited to be working and doing something with his life again. He’s not super excited about what he’s doing but he just wants to spoil me. He was like now i can take YOU out and buy YOU things.

It’ll be weird not seeing him though. Not being able to text him and get lunch together and stuff. I’m going to miss having him at my beck and call lol. But hey this means we’re one step closer to getting a place together.

Oh M said something kind of cool the other day. He was like, “We should get coffee or dinner sometime. Just talk and stuff.” It made me happy because it means that he wants to really get to know me. Like, I’m more to him than some chick at work he’s fucking on the side. He wants to establish something more than that. I mean we haven’t even fucked yet. We could very easily use hang out time to bang. But he seems to also want to get to know me a little. I don’t know, it just made me happy to hear.

Today we were texting. Around closing time I asked him if he was excited to finally be going home. He said he “is excited to be leaving here.” Maybe things at home aren’t going to well? According to T (his girlfriend…I’m sorry wife’s sister) she’s a real bitch.

I wonder why he’s with her. Not like judging I just want to know the reason(s). I mean I had reasons for staying with someone who didn’t love me. I want to know what his reason for staying with an ‘insufferable’ person is. It’ll be interesting to see how his brain works.

Anyway, I’m going to head to bed. I’m exhausted and I have a busyish day tomorrow. Have a lovely night/day, my loves!