Heartbreaking in 2015

I’m still alive… just been sick, and busy.

My friend had her daughter pass away almost 2 weeks ago. She was 19 months old. It has been horrible around this little town. Everyone is shocked by it, everyone felt it, everyone is sad. Every mother took this to heart. Its the saddest thing ever. Her and her boyfriend are fairly close friends with us… so it was heartbreaking to watch her deal with this.

I was at the hospital that morning, I went to visit my gramma, my cousin was in town and everything. I saw my buddy outside the hospital crying his eyes out but I didn’t stop to talk to him because there were cops everywhere. Then I heard the news, at that point it was still a “rumor” so I just hoped and prayed it wasn’t true. By mid afternoon I found out it was true. I started a gofundme account the next day for them. Our tiny little town raised 9k, in like two days. Its not for the funeral etc because those costs were covered, its just for incidentals. The stuff that people who are grieving really don’t want to have to think about. I don’t give a rats bottom what they spend it on. Hopefully they can take a little vacation!

She and her boyfriend came over to visit about 3-4 days after it happened. The poor girl. My chest ached for her. They don’t know what happened yet, as every test so far was inconclusive. She just didn’t wake up one morning. My friend said she was just blue. SIDS is a likely cause but its extremely rare now, and super rare over the age of 1. I hugged them and tried my best to not cry.

The funeral was just yesterday, I assume they’re a mess right now. She was brave enough to stand up and say a few things for/about her daughter at the service. I would not have been so strong.

This is a lesson to us all. All of the mothers in this town, or anyone who knew her, or the baby. Hug your kids a little closer… you just never fucking know. And don’t sweat the small stuff. The day it happened, I saw so many negative poor me posts on facebook, and I just wanted to punch each and every one of those people. I mean yeah, they likely don’t know her or whatever, but still. Your life could be so much worse right now.

Right now Miley is screaming at me about going to bed, and NOT listening. But I’m just trying to think positively… at least shes still here.

Kristen

Last updated September 28, 2015