A good day in Musings and Daily Events

You know it’s going to be a good day when everything matches. Everything from my nipple ring to my shoes match today and its awesome. I feel invincible.

Yesterday wasn’t this awesome. I mad a bit of a breakdown when E picked me up from school. I was crying in the car, hating mummy life, my major, my student loans, worrying about my future and being in crippling debt. E just listened while I blubbered and made a mess of myself. Then he told me to just get through it. That I was almost done so quitting now would be stupid. He told me to stop worrying about the future and that he would make absolutely sure that I was taken care of. I hugged him and said thank you. He started talking about his restaurant and I said I’m not going to bank on it because it could very well not happen. He said that he realizes he’s been lazy. That he says all these things about getting his shit together and doesn’t do it. But, when he wants something he gets it and he wants me to be happy.

Last night when I called him before bed, he informed me that he starts work on Monday. He said he comes from a family of stay at home moms and that’s how he likes it so he got his shit together to night sure that happens for us one day I nearly cried. I said that I just want to have enough to be comfortable and enough that me staying home with the kid(s) wouldn’t be detrimental to our monetary comfort.

He said he’s going to make that happen. He wants me to have the life I want and deserve and he wants to be the one to give it to me.

Talk about provide and protect.