J is for Justin in PolyLife

So I mentioned J a few times. The free love hippie man who I fell in love with. I was thinking about him on the train this morning so I figured he deserves an entry.

I met Justin on OKC. He messaged me first talking about tea, because I mentioned in my profile that I love tea. We chatted and decided to have out first date at this coffee shop down the road from my school. He met me on campus and we walked to the coffee shop. We sat down and chatted. He was weird but I liked it. I loved the way he thought and talked. Definitely the way he talked. I could listen to Justin all day.

We spend more and more time together. He teaches me so much through just is actions and words. I learn how to accept things I can’t change. I learn that people are free to do as they please. Justin never got mad at me when I didn’t answer him back. Even when I told him I just didn’t feel like talking at that point in time. He always told me that I was free to do what I wanted. I could lie to him, not talk to him, use him. It’s my prerogative.

It was different. There were no rules with Justin. No protocalls. If I wanted to talk to him I was always free to call. On the same note, he was free to answer or not. It made things simpler. It made life easier and things really don’t bother you as much when you think of life that way.

Was I ever hurt. Oh yeah. I remember wanting to spend time with him and he didn’t answer me because he was with another girl (this was before I was completely okay with him seeing other women, I of course allowed it but it sucked). But he’s allowed to be with others. And I’m allowed to feel hurt, we talked and I got over it.

Class is letting out. I’ll finish this later.