Enough of the sappy in Musings and Daily Events

So now that I got my sappy thanks off of my chest, lets move on to the good stuff. Today was a halfway decent day. I woke up and took care of my mom for a bit. She hurt her foot so I got her to soak it in some Epsom salt, hot toweled it, and wrapped it for her to ease the pain and support it a bit. Then I showered and shaved and got ready to head to school. I managed to get ymself halfway decent looking. Nothing like a pair of jeggings and a black tank top to make you feel good about yourself. I had on some bright red lipstick but it came off after I ate lunch.

I drove a bit today. I’m doing fine I really don’t have any issue driving. My mom is still so scared though when i drive. I’m thinking of getting my own car soon. At least then I can get practice on a car that isn’t my parents you know? I have the money for it so it’s not like that’s the issue. Maybe I’ll take one Sunday and go out with my parents to just take a look at some used cars. We’ll see how that goes over lol.

Today is our 7 month anniversary. E and I that is. I can’t believe over half a year has gone by since we got together. That’s insane. I mean, this time last month E and I were in Florida with his family. It really seems like that was just a few days ago. But I guess time is funny like that.

Yesterday was interesting to say the least. Matt was flirting hardcore over text and it was fine no biggie. Then it got heated. Damn, this kid can sext like I don’t even know what. He got me so wet it was crazy. Needless to say, he’s got me interested in him. But now I’m in a predicament. Well a few predicaments.
1) Do I really want to mess around with TWO guys at work? I mean they’re in different places kind of but they interact with each other everyday, you know? That could get super weird really fast.
2) Do I really want to do that to M? I don’t care too much about Matt. He understands that he’s a side piece and there’s no feelings there between us. Other than horny genitals lol. But I care about M. I don’t want to hurt him and I think it might. I mean…I don’t know he looked sad or something (not sad but I’m not sure what the word would be) when i told him on Friday that I was hanging out with Matt. He already told me not to let him get in the way of me wanting to see other people. But at the same time…I really don’t want to lose him. I wouldn’t say my feelings for M are romantic. It’s not like I’m going to try and steal him away fromhis fiance or something. I just care deeply about him and want him to be happy.
3) If I do start seeing Matt, do I even tell M? I know I should, even if for protection sake. I mean it should be up to M if he doesn’t want to see me because I’m seeing other people. I’ve always been upfront about who else I’m seeing. But, like i said..i don’t want to lose him. And I mean, will he continue to want to see me knowing that I’m banging another guy he sees and works with everyday? Obviously, i’ll tell him. I can’t not tell him because it doesn’t feel right. But then, maybe I just shouldn’t sleep with Matt at all at this point. M is more important to me.

Ah well, I’ll figure it out in due time.