well since she's apparently giving up on me then..... in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

maybe i’ll give up on her. steph i mean. maybe i’ll stop doing things for her. in fact i already was. i didn’t want to do things to make her happy which was why i stopped. and that’s what led to this. to her giving up on me. yeah she’s losing in a sense this wonderful sweet person. and godamnit i am wonderful! not that i believe that v. often but i am. fact is. or w/e word you want to use.
yeah but this is what i wanted. er well i did want to move but i wanted to be the one to say it. i wanted to be given a fukin set time as to when she was going to make that decision.by. and no i’m not focusing on the fact that is what i want/ed. no of course not knowing me. all this time i’ve wanted to get away from her. and for more than 2 days. cause my god.
no now i don’t have to do things for her in order to stay at er in her house bc well. i’m apparently not going to. which is what i’ve wanted all this time. was for her to back the hell off. and she finally has. took her long enough damn. except it ended w/ me moving. and that’s what i don’t like about it. no i wanted her to back the hell off when i was still living here. er i mean when i knew i wasn’t moving. when it hadn’t become real. oh no but if she’d done that she wouldn’t be doing her job. yeah i get it. which says to me her job is more important than i am. wow thanks that’s.......wow. which is fine. it just means she doesn’t care that much. right now i don’t want to believe otherwise so don’t try and convince me.