she implied that. and yet here we are. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so the other day. it was either yesterday or the day prior fuk if i remember which one. anyway. steph said something to me like ‘well you’ve already had it hard enough’ implying she didn’t want to make it worse. well 1: that’s another thing i don’t like about her. i don’t need her godamn sympathy. i don’t want to know why she did it or to talk to her about it or anything. i just want her to not do that. to not be like that. omygod.
ok and B the main point of this entry. yeah well by telling me i’m moving it’s. making things worse. ya know so thanks that’s awesome. don’t tell me the other side of things. i actually idk that i’d appreciate that. really just don’t. instead of letting me stay. i think legally i do actually have to move once that’s been decided. pretty sure it’s a requirement though i don’t know. i also don’t know if she’s signed the resignation paper or not. also her decision to resign isn’t really well my decision. my choosing to do/not do certain things was and still is but the end result isn’t. so ya know thanks for deciding for me about my life. in a way it’s akin to being raped. oh good.
so. i don’t remember agreeing to this. which is why she was going to talk to me about if but even if she’d given me that choice i wouldn’t’ve told her so really there wouldn’t’ve been any point. like i want/ed a choice but i don’t want to hear it from her. in a way she’s better off not having talked to me about it. yeah i know i’m contradictory.
if people can’t help you. they’ll give up on you. and don’t tell me the other side. except for friends. friends won’t give up. even if they can’t help you. i’ve never once given up on evan............for all that long. i’ve always been there and he knows that. and as for right now. for the foreseeable future i always will be there. for as long as i can be.
other than this being brought up once before. the whole steph moving thing. i don’t think i had that much warning from her and her only. so what else is new story of my life.
i know what to do about it.

Last updated September 13, 2015