the amber thing in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so. i have a new service coordinator for a short period. nick who i met yesterday. that’s the only time i’ve seen him but so far he’s nice. i like that he’s someone new and i don’t have a history w/ him. but soon enough we grow to have history w/ people. i don’t know the amount of time he’s going to be my service coordinator. for. idk if it’s going to be 2 wks. or 2 months or what. um. also he’s the /her manager so he’s busy w/ that.
but. ok so when she comes back from leave and supposing she’s nicer and all that. and knows she fuked up and admits it and we start again. i still won’t want her to be my person. er service coordinator. bc we have that history. and really i don’t want to be reminded of that in some way [well i do but only so it makes things worse that’s the only reason. maybe that’s not good for me and actually it probably isn’t. but the point being]. and right now i want someone new. but thing is after nick stops being my coordinator [but i’m never going to not have one] i don’t know if i’ll get someone new. not saying i won’t........but i don’t know that i will either.