Cheater, cheater in Musings and Daily Events

People have asked, or are confused about why I cheat. And honestly, there is no one answer. There are a few reasons. And none of them have the do with the stereotypical reasons or cheating (unhappy, bored, etc.).

I’m very happy with my relationship. E is my entire world. When I’m with him, I feel beautiful and amazing. He treats me the way I want to be treated. I’m madly in love with him.

Then why do it, Sandra?

I don’t know. Honestly, I’m selfish. When he isn’t around I want others. When he is around, I only want him. I love the extra attention. The taboo of cheating is pretty hot. I feel like mostly, it’s because I know I’ll stop (or I think I know) because I figure it is mostly because we aren’t around each other. I see him twice a week. I feel like when we start our lives together and settle down, there wont be this void. I could be totally wrong but hey, life’s a journey and I plan to learn and grow while on it.

Yesterday, E picked me up from school and stayed with me until my train arrived. It was so much fun. We laugh and jam. No one makes me as happy as he does. He also looked so good yesterday. I straight up made out with him in the car for like 20 minutes because I wanted him so bad. I wish we could’ve done more but unfortunately, a parking lot at a busy station doesn’t leave for much canoodling.

About to approach, NSFW 18+ stuff. Just so you’re warned

We were talking about last Thursday when I went over to his place for the day. Aww man it was fantastic. I was so horny and wanted him so bad even though we had just finished. I’m REALLY submissive. I love the idea of being dominant but when I approach actually being dominant (which E is slightly into) I get weirded out and stop. So I grabbed E’s hair and was about to push him down to my waiting pussy and chickened out. Apparently, (he told me yesterday) he knew exactly what I wanted but didn’t do anything because he wanted me to embrace the dominance. “I would’ve been so into it,” he says. Ughhhh i should’ve just said fuck it and ridden his face like I really wanted to but hey, next time it’s so on. I’m going to make him my bitch....or you know…be slightly more assertive.

Until he met me, he was more submissive. Not into the whole Dom thing. He tried it because he knew I was into it. Turns out, he gets off on that too. SO he’s more switch now but I’ve yet to embrace my inner Domme. One day.

I just want someone to eat me out.