Anxiety. in The Awesome Chronicles of me.

Sept. 7, 2015, 12:26 p.m.
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These four things I KNOW ARE TRUE:

1) I had a bad anxiety attack on Wednesday night.

2) I’m still feeling it to be honest.

3) I am forcing myself to go out tonight again.

4) I’m just blah.

so here we go..

Yeah. I had a bad anxiety attack on wednesday. I was terribly anti-social on thursday, kind of on friday, and still feeling it to today to be honest. I forced myself to go out on friday, but it was an okay thing mainly because where I went was 3 couples, another dude who is a great guy and a person i consider a friend but he is better friends with the 3 couples so i sat on my phone and played star realms and browsed reddit/twitter/facebook etc. i honestly came home and played final fantasy. Which I did all weekend. I didn’t want to go out mainly for two reasons: Bigger one was the anxiety and the people (And this hit me in game too, i wasn’t social at all thursday, and still felt it other wise) I could of went out twice but i didn’t. And next sunday is the start of football season and my game time will be cut down somewhat for obvious reasons. (i’m gonna probably stop watching around 7 and skip the sunday night game sans green bay playing)

My brother has been an idiot lately, what else is new? He basically was being a gigantic grump to my mom and just an idiot. I think if a dementor would try to feed off his happiness they’d starve.

But yeah. I’m going to a labor day outing at about 430 and i’m forcing myself to go.

I had a nice dream the other night. I dreamt i met a Russian girl who loved board games. I know that this was a dream because:

I met a girl.
She was russian (And anyone who knows me knows i’m kind of a Russophile)
and she liked board games.
A trifecta that will never happen in real life. hah.

Anyways, that is about it. On a scale of 1-10 anxiety wise i’m probably at about a 7.5.

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