so evan i in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

we’re still better but. he spiked out today and i dont’ completely get why. he.........it was bigger than usual. he started out by talking about. no well i called him after he’d called me and hung up. and then so when i called him he said ‘you must know that i’m on camera’ and then hung up. he has this thing about people being on camera. yeah he’s paranoid as fuk and i wish he wasn’t. i don’t want anyone else to help him w/ this cause of how entitled i am which is more my issue than his. and he won’t admit he has depression or w/e it is. he thinks it’s all part of someone’s personality. which is fine it’s just easier for me to deal w/ things in terms of mental disorders. like ‘ok well this person has depression and since i know a bit about it then i’m able to understand it’. or ptsd. or w/e. but i don’t understand why he’s like this. even when we were on the phone i asked if i’d done something to upset him. he didn’t answer. he gets agitated easily. well so doi but i actually know why i do. and what happened to get me to that point. and far as i know he doesn’t. it would help me a lot if. he was like ‘well this person said this thing and now i’m annoyed’ when he gets like this.

he said something about how everyone thinks i’m younger [well they do] and he doesn’t know how old i am [which he does] and that he doesn’t care . it was either that or he doesn’t care where i live. but he also told me that if it makes me feel safer to not tell him then do that. so yeah i’ve been keeping that from him but that’s why.
he also doesn’t believe my dad’s a ref. which i can see bc well we live in cherry creek [an upscale neighborhood for those unfamiliar. well. my parents live there i’m just from there] and i don’t know how much refs make. my mom’s a cpa and i don’tknow how much they make but i’m guessing more than a ref. [and please don’t tell me. if i want to know i’ll look it up or ask my sister]. i actually don’t know a lot about their financial situation.
so i just texted him and told him it’s ok if he asks about my parents, sister, whoever. it’s ok if he asks what jobs they have but not their financial situation. A: i won’t tell him and 2: it really isn’t his business. or anyone’s. this isn’t specific to him. and like i already put i don’t know their financial situation. he can choose to believe me on that or not but if i feel like he thinks i’m being dishonest, then. well that’s not good.
i already know what to do about this and have done it, so.