um. amber. and the violation thingy. and object. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so i’m less angry about the amber thing now i’m just hurt. i feel like she objectified me. by a lot of the time talking about me. talking around me like i wasn’t even there. deciding things for me. treating me like the object she thinks i am. well i think she thinks i am and i don’t want to believe otherwise. like oh i know. let’s move her into this room w/o even asking her about it. metaphorically speaking. you shouldn’t just. move people around as though they’re chess pieces and like their feelings don’t matter. i mean people do and they have myself being one of them. but they shouldn’t. again the reality of it.
it started off ok. she didn’t start off threatening me. but it ended up that way. i know why she did it but that doesn’t mean i deserve it. cause no. no one does. um. ............ um. i don’t think people just randomly do things like that. i think there must’ve been something personal going on w/ her. i forgot what else toput. oh. and the times i wanted to leave. part of that was bc i knew something was wrong and that was my way of communicating it. er it would’ve been had i left.my house. which i didn’t.