so, yesterday. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

so yesterday when i came back to my house steph informed me that amber wanted me to sign a paper stating that i wanteed alex to be my advocate. which isn’t a problem. here’s the thing: amber wanted me to sign the paper last night. which i didn’t think was a good idea being that i didn’t have enough information on what alex did. untill today when i got more. it’s like amber was saying ok so you’re going to go to this school. for like art or science or w/e. but you have to move in tonight. and you don’t get to think about it.
well so i called my mom about that and we agreed i wasn’t signing the paper untill today. cause. alex isn’t working for amber. or anyone else. she’s working for me. and also another reason i wasn’t going to sign the paper last niht was bc. that was my way of communicating to amber that she’s not going to tell me what todo. in that regard. no she doesn’t fukin own me. in the words of lesley gore. at that moment she wasn’t going to control me. and i wasn’t going to let her.
it all worked out. er me signing the paper when i’d had more time to did. that’s what i meant. it’s just. another issue i have w/ amber. right now isn’t a good time for me to talk to her about it as i’m still emotional about it.