Twitter: Surface in Book Two: The Fifteenth Year of the Third Millennium of the Common Era

Balance, it seems, is not my forte. This week my hours have increased to 21… so almost double, which is good, but not full time- of course. Thing is… this also happens to be the week (of course) where sleep has been difficult. But even when I can sleep (averaging about 4 or 5 hours) I have nightmares about travel. The symbolism is obvious and not that difficult to decipher but… little sleep compounded by nightmares makes for a tired, therefore sore, Me. Still scouring the Legal Job Market, of course. It is frustrating trying to plan ahead when the road beyond is so obscured. Wife was mentioning something about Holidays and I couldn’t help but instantly think if I have a job by then… but she also mentioned something about the distant future and I still thought if I have a job by then. I come from a family, and I am very much a person, that plans. Plans to the hilt. Contingencies upon contingencies to make sure that whatever happens we aren’t caught entirely unawares. But… it is hard to do ANY planning (primary or contingency). For example… our lease runs out in November. Should we extend it? Find a new place in Omaha to live? Will I have received a job offer by then? It is hard to feel centered about anything with the uncertainty of this Job thing weighing on everything. And I thank you for the support and comments but… my faith that a job will come along has been considerably dampened.

Last updated January 04, 2016