Saturday morning in New Diary

I slept in today. It is Saturday. I am doing a lot better on the new med. Depression is down to 1 along with anxiety and paranoia. I feel like my old self. Best thing about that is I am able to concentrate a lot better. I read two chapters in my book about John Marshall. Good stuff. Also watched Dateline last night. It was a sad story about a couple. They get divorced. The father gets custody of their baby daughter. During a visitation the mother ends up kidnapping her daughter. She leaves the country. It took him twenty years to find his daughter. They were living in Australia The mother gets three years in jail on various charges. I could relate to the father in the story.

I still have a hard time leaving my apartment. I don’t like being around people in the building. Even when I go to Wal Mart I get anxious. I don’t like being around people. It is an irrational fear but then again we are living in a crazy world. I could be out at WM and then all of a sudden somebody could get in a fight or a robbery could take place. Then again people are so rude and nasty anymore. It is very depressing for me to be around other people. Oh well

I am doing good. Always remember the blessings. 1) I am alive. 2) I have a wonderful fiancé. 3) I have a nice apartment. 4) I am in good physical health. 5) I have food to eat and clothes to wear. 6) I have money for meds. 7) I have a wonderful support system in Healthways 8) I have phone, internet and cable tv. 9) I have interesting books to read. Life is pretty good.

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