um just stuff. in The Wonderland Years: 2015. Done.

been awhile since i’ve caught up on. everything. also i don’t feel good, so. which is why i haven’t wanted to do/blog much. so here’s what’s changed and what hasn’t and stuff since um. june 27th:

the other day steph i were talking about the conformity thing and she’s like no one’s trying to change who you are. well i have an entry from june 27th that somewhat proves otherwise. no. i’m chaotic and noncompliant and they’re trying to change that so yes they are trying to change who i am.
i’m still washing my hair in front of them. er well not actually in front of them. but i wash it w/ the bathroom door open. and untill the past 2 times jenn’s come into check. except for earlier tonight which. i don’t want to talk about right now. but if i don’t bring it up at some point then i’ll forget. yeah earlier was more anxiety inducing than usual.
my depression’s still where it was.
more often than not steph’s the one doing bag checks which i don’t like. bc it feels like she’s taking over vs. when jenn does it. when jenn does it it doesn’t feel that way.
steph still thanks me for doing certain things therefore implying i’m too stupid to do that myself
i’ve stopped brushing my teeth whenever i want to cause well i got tired of it.
evan and i are still good
i had another panic attack like. earlier this wk.
more often than not i haven’t been as nice to steph as i should
recovery. isn’t where it should be no in fact it’s gotten worse
i still haven’t read the note jenn gave me. and i probably won’t. they haven’t left me a note in like 2 wks. which is fine actually.
i haven’t gone to king’s in awhile
i’m still getting up by 11 but i’m not staying up
oh the arts fest was good
at some point in time during the summer my relatives were in town. we had a hail storm. um. we went out to eat.
my sister i saw minions and the 2nd paul blart movie. ........um my mom i saw pitch perfect 2. my sister and i went to the history museum we painted ceramics we went to pete’s. and i forgot what else we’ve done. oh well we went to the science museum for the mythical creatures exhibit that was cool.

Last updated August 09, 2015