Waiting and Dealing in 2015

Still waiting on the results of my hearing. It’s been 3 weeks.

I’m dealing with a lot of emotional as well as physical pain. My depression seems to be getting worse not better. I hate being dependent on my children. Knowing that they are also struggling and then me feeling like I always have to have them to buy my meds and personal items. So a lot of times I go without something.

My physical pain is due to having muscle spasms in my back. Which comes from the charcot and the bone spurs that are running across my spine. I hurt constantly so much that I can’t even lay down in bed without crying for an hour to settle down.

My depression takes me places I know I shouldn’t travel in my mind. But it’s hard sometimes.

I wanted to try and write and will try and return tomorrow.